i'm too sensitive for my own good. need to stop being weak sauce. a good friend gave me a mini-lecture tonight about having thicker skin and not taking everything everyone says so seriously.
wise words. i'm a softie at heart. need to change that a little bit and "man" up :)
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
what i could be doing instead...
last week at this time, i was coming home from two days of snowboarding...pretty much having the time of my life.
this week, it's the end of classes. another semester, same old stuff...ick.
how i wish it was vacation all the time...
anyone wanna go snowboarding?? :)
this week, it's the end of classes. another semester, same old stuff...ick.
how i wish it was vacation all the time...
anyone wanna go snowboarding?? :)
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
i wanna have a baby.
i started babysitting again today. first time in about 6-7 months. it feels good. i love being around kids. the way they make you smile and feel like you have no other worries in the world.
being around kids always makes me want one of my own. i was in the playground at washington square park today with hanna (she's 5). there were A LOT of kids there...i guess cos it was such a beautiful and warm day outside. watching kids play is always fun.
anyway, hanna was swinging today, and out of nowhere, i got this deja vu. i'm older, and i'm watching my own kids at the park. i'm videotaping them of course. i have this vision where my children's lives are gonna be recorded on video (on top of multitudes of pictures). i realized that it is me, their mom, at the park with them, playing and having fun. it's not a nanny or a babysitter doing my job for me.
made me think a lot about my future. it's been a hard couple of months, trying to decide what i'm doing with my life. today made it clear that no matter what i'm doing, it has to be flexible enough so that i can have the luxury of playing with my kids. maybe this means i'm working from home, maybe this means i'm not working at all, that i have the luxury of being a stay-at-home mom while my husband makes all the money.
funny thoughts, ha. my future husband, wherever you are, be forewarned. i'm gonna need someone to allow me to spend a hell of a lotta time with my kids :)
i can't wait to be a mom, haha.
being around kids always makes me want one of my own. i was in the playground at washington square park today with hanna (she's 5). there were A LOT of kids there...i guess cos it was such a beautiful and warm day outside. watching kids play is always fun.
anyway, hanna was swinging today, and out of nowhere, i got this deja vu. i'm older, and i'm watching my own kids at the park. i'm videotaping them of course. i have this vision where my children's lives are gonna be recorded on video (on top of multitudes of pictures). i realized that it is me, their mom, at the park with them, playing and having fun. it's not a nanny or a babysitter doing my job for me.
made me think a lot about my future. it's been a hard couple of months, trying to decide what i'm doing with my life. today made it clear that no matter what i'm doing, it has to be flexible enough so that i can have the luxury of playing with my kids. maybe this means i'm working from home, maybe this means i'm not working at all, that i have the luxury of being a stay-at-home mom while my husband makes all the money.
funny thoughts, ha. my future husband, wherever you are, be forewarned. i'm gonna need someone to allow me to spend a hell of a lotta time with my kids :)
i can't wait to be a mom, haha.
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