writer's block

i have nothing to say.
i always feel like i need to post something funny or interesting to read.
i'm not very funny or interesting -_-

ah...maybe in a couple of days

exciting week!

wow...definitely had the most exciting week!!!!

turned 22, had an awesome dinner with super-fabulous friends, watched the spice girls at their reunion tour (AMAZING), celebrated valentine's day (haha i wore red and didn't go to class...it was awesome), had a hot date with elaine chiu who gave me the world's best pez dispenser, celebrated friends' birthdays, and tomorrow is going to jersey to party at vivian's house and then snowboarding on saturday!!!!

God has been so good...everything that happens, it's all a blessing from Him, and for that i am so thankful :)

gosh i was dumb

so today, i was having lunch with my little sib (jenn) and we started talking how we used to be a couple of years ago. i told her about one of my old xangas, and i started laughing at how dumb i used to be. the way that i talked...ugh, i thought i was SO cool and SO asian...haha. it's really embarrassing.

anyway, i started reading over some of the entries. to be honest, i wish i could say that that part of me never existed, but there it was, staring right back at me. interesting. i was so naive back then.

if you want a good laugh and actually wanna read them, ask me for the link. i'm not gonna make it public to everyone :P

a day in the life.

so the title of this blog has been changed from 'secrets' to 'life of a karebear.' i changed it cos it sounded a little more appropriate.

the giants won the super bowl!!! super excited.
however, i've lost my voice...not so exciting.

tomorrow is going to be a long day...not sure how i'm gonna pull through.
the life of a karebear...here's my schedule for tomorrow

900-1100: internship
1200-100: office hours
200-445: intro to social work
500-600: babysit
600-700: gym! (if i'm so tired at this point that i can barely move, i'm gonna scratch this from my agenda)
730-900: servant team meeting
930-1030: fire safety checks

not to mention that i'm on duty, tomorrow is going to be a damn busy day. UGH!

ms. softee

i'm too sensitive for my own good. need to stop being weak sauce. a good friend gave me a mini-lecture tonight about having thicker skin and not taking everything everyone says so seriously.

wise words. i'm a softie at heart. need to change that a little bit and "man" up :)

what i could be doing instead...

last week at this time, i was coming home from two days of snowboarding...pretty much having the time of my life.

this week, it's the end of classes. another semester, same old stuff...ick.

how i wish it was vacation all the time...

anyone wanna go snowboarding?? :)

i wanna have a baby.

i started babysitting again today. first time in about 6-7 months. it feels good. i love being around kids. the way they make you smile and feel like you have no other worries in the world.

being around kids always makes me want one of my own. i was in the playground at washington square park today with hanna (she's 5). there were A LOT of kids there...i guess cos it was such a beautiful and warm day outside. watching kids play is always fun.

anyway, hanna was swinging today, and out of nowhere, i got this deja vu. i'm older, and i'm watching my own kids at the park. i'm videotaping them of course. i have this vision where my children's lives are gonna be recorded on video (on top of multitudes of pictures). i realized that it is me, their mom, at the park with them, playing and having fun. it's not a nanny or a babysitter doing my job for me.

made me think a lot about my future. it's been a hard couple of months, trying to decide what i'm doing with my life. today made it clear that no matter what i'm doing, it has to be flexible enough so that i can have the luxury of playing with my kids. maybe this means i'm working from home, maybe this means i'm not working at all, that i have the luxury of being a stay-at-home mom while my husband makes all the money.

funny thoughts, ha. my future husband, wherever you are, be forewarned. i'm gonna need someone to allow me to spend a hell of a lotta time with my kids :)

i can't wait to be a mom, haha.